He nodded and nodded, combing through Percy’s hair with one hand and trying not to look defeated. “I absolutely promise. I wont hide anything from you. I.. I mean I want us to be able to communicate, so…” He sighed and then pouted and gave Percy a little kiss on the nose. “Can I do anything to make you feel better, Chuchu…?” He doubted it, but he could at least offer it up and try.
“I WON’T HIDE ANYTHING FROM YOU EITHER." With that out of the way, Percy was pretty much ready to drop the subject and try not to dwell on it any longer. All he could really do now was hope Plant stuck to his promise. Man, he hated feeling so freakin’ vulnerable. Maybe he could try joking a little to lighten the mood. "NOT THAT… NOT THAT I’M VERY GOOD AT KEEPING THINGS HIDDEN TO BEGIN WITH, BUT YOU KNOW, HEH…" he said, trying a small smile in the hopes it’d reassure Plant at least a little. At least the Searchbot didn’t look quite so much like he was going to cry now. "…UM, CUDDLES WOULD BE NICE.”
I-I’m not even going to dignify that with a response…
Good because no one wants to hear you fucking talk.
I-I’d say the same could be said for you, but then that would be stating the obvious, now wouldn’t it.
The inner need to protect and shelter and defend was coming out quickly as Percy opened up, and Plant really wanted nothing more than to hold him and comfort him and reassure him of things between them. “Percy, Chuchu, Meu Querido...” He really didn’t know what to say to make it better. “You’re more than good enough.” Gently he wrapped his tendrils back around him once he’d adjusted his position, playing with his partner’s hair and trying very hard to be gentle with him. “It isn’t that you aren’t good enough or that you don’t make me happy, because you do! I’m always smiling and laughing when I’m with you, and you’re fun to be around and to drink with and to kiss and cuddle with and to go to bed with. And you’re so good to me…”
Man did he feel selfish. He dug his nose and forehead into Percy for a few seconds, letting up just to nuzzle his shoulder. “Please don’t think it’s anything you’ve done or haven’t done. You mean so much to me and you’re the only robot I’ve ever seriously thought about wanting to be.. well to go steady with. I really don’t want you to feel like you’re not good enough because that isn’t it at all. I just have trouble settling down, I suppose…”
“…OKAY…" Was all Percy said for now, falling silent for a few moments. It seemed to be more from thinking than his mood sinking even lower though, judging by the way he leaned into the nature ‘bot’s affections a little. He’d be lying if he said this hadn’t affected his trust in Plant, but the guy seemed to regret what he’d done. After a few more moments, Percy finally turned his head to properly look at Plant. "…PROMISE YOU WON’T HIDE ANY MORE THINGS FROM ME??”
Plant knew it was definitely hypocritical and confusing. He frowned and put both arms and tendrils around the other once he was leaning in, making a desperate but somewhat clumsy effort to give him a kiss only to realize he really could only reach his neck. That’d do, though. “I guess I just didn’t think it was ever going to be serious to, y’know, become an actual relationship. Like with us.”
.. Oh oops. “I mean, I, hm.” His face scrunched up. “I mean, he just seemed so desperate. It’s.. it’s such a different situation.” There was a long pause. “I guess I was just really being selfish. The idea of having someone who claimed that they loved me who was willing and wanting to make me happy seemed so appealing…”
Another pause. “Percy,” Plant started again softly, “I didn’t mean for things to get so out of control. I don’t even really understand it all. I should have talked to you. I mean maybe then at least I wouldn’t have been so stupid, either.” With a sigh he rubbed his partner’s shoulder. “I really have no idea how a proper relationship is supposed to work, I guess.”
“BUT I WAS WILLING AND WANTING TO MAKE YOU HAPPY…" Percy said, bringing his legs up a bit so he could rest his arms on his knees and, in turn, rest his head on his arms. He still wasn’t quite able to make eye contact just yet, still focusing on keeping the waterworks under control. "WAS… AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH?? I KNOW I MAKE STUPID MISTAKES AND I KNOW I’M NOT EXACTLY A WELL-LIKED ‘BOT, BUT I’VE BEEN TRYING… I REALLY HAVE BEEN TRYING, AND…" His sentence trailed off again and he just stared ahead at a random patch of grass. It was a good thing he was comfortable showing weakness around Plant, because he felt pretty pathetic right now. "…IF I’M NOT DOING THINGS RIGHT, YOU CAN TELL ME, YOU KNOW??”
Alright, Plant already felt awful, and he went up to sit next to Percy and hold one of his hands. Stupid and sappy and emotional, maybe, but he really didn’t care. “I’m sorry. It was bad of me and I swear if I thought it was going to get more involved I would have told you and figured out what to do but I honestly didn’t think we would get close enough quick enough to warrant making you worry and…”
This wasn’t coming easily. “I got upset with her because I like you, yeah, and I was jealous, and I didn’t want anyone else having you because.. well because I liked you a lot and I still like you a lot and..” He sighed, and bit his lip and squeezed Percy’s fingers within his own. “Flame told me he loved me. I thought that somehow that maybe that would mean something, because nobody’s ever told me that before. I see now how stupid it was to think that alone would mean anything.” Seeing just how upset Percy just increased the desperation in his voice. “I care about you and I’m really no good with relationships yet, but, if.. I mean if you still like me even a little bit, after all that.. I really, really want to keep seeing you. You’re the sweetest funniest guy I know and I care about you. I mean I really, really care about you.”
“I JUST DON’T GET WHY IT WAS BAD FOR ME TO DO A BIT OF FLIRTING BACK WHEN WE WEREN’T REALLY ALL THAT INVOLVED, ONLY FOR YOU TO GO AND GET INTO ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT EVEN SAYING ANYTHING…" While not necessarily quiet, Percy’s voice was kind of subdued compared to how it was usually. Honestly he looked like a kicked puppy, but he gave Plant’s hand a little squeeze in return. He hoped he wasn’t inadvertently guilt-tripping the little guy; he really was just genuinely confused. "I STILL LIKE YOU, I JUST- I DUNNO, IT’S- …" Here he slumped a little and lightly leaned against Plant. "…I’VE TALKED TO YOU ABOUT SO MUCH STUFF I DON’T NORMALLY TALK ABOUT TO ANYONE, I JUST SORTA THOUGHT WE WERE MORE OPEN WITH EACH OTHER THAN THAT…”
And there it was. “Well,” he started, “I could be better. Um. I’m alright right now though. You see I, well funny story. This guy, Flame, another tournament robot like myself, he thought he was in love with me or something? And so he spent a great deal of time wooing me and trying to.. to get me to love him back, I suppose, but it didn’t quite work out and well…”
How terrible did that sound? Plant shook his head. “He was an ass and a jerk and I don’t want to have anything to do with him and I really, really just want to forget about him entirely.” Yeah that still sounded shitty, so he bit his lip. “Are you angry at me?”
It didn’t take long for Percy to get the bag open, but he didn’t really do all that much from there other than use it as an excuse to avoid eye contact for the time being. Maker, this was… weird. How was he even supposed to react? Right now he just had some funny feeling in his metaphorical stomach that was making him want to curl up and lie down somewhere. “NO, NO, I’M NOT MAD, I’M JUST… KIND OF CONFUSED, I GUESS??”
He lowered the bag a little and let out a light sigh. Better to get it over and done with as quick as possible, he guessed. “I MEAN FROM WHAT I SAW IT SOUNDED LIKE YOU LIKED HIM TOO, AND LIKE… I KNOW WE AREN’T PROPERLY TOGETHER, AND THERE’S NOTHING STOPPING YOU FROM SEEING OTHER PEOPLE AND STUFF, BUT… WELL YOU GOT UPSET WITH ME WHEN I WAS FLIRTING WITH THAT PINK BIRD CHICK, RIGHT?? AND I THOUGHT YOU DID IT BECAUSE YOU LIKED ME, AND…" Fuck, there was that familiar feeling in his throat. He was not going to cry. He was not going to make Plant feel any worse than he already no doubt did. Really he just needed to stop rambling, because he felt like he wasn’t really making much sense. “…I DUNNO, I JUST- I DON’T KNOW HOW THIS STUFF WORKS…”
Oh that response was not good. Plant paused to adjust his stance and composure and to make sure he looked confident, then he swung around the place a while, eventually stopping in front of Holly to rustle the leaves and reach an arm in to wave. “Percy, you in there? Sneaky sneaky.” Once sure things were alright he shimmied around and scooted in, fluffing up his hair once he was done to distract himself again. “Hah. Holly must’ve grown for it to have gotten harder to sneak in, huh.” Already he was feeling awkward, and he sat down on the ground a few feet away from his friend. “Sssssooooo. I brought these for you.” A bag of pop rock packets was tossed forward. “How are you doing..?” Smooth.
“AH, YEAH, HEH…" Percy said with a small smile, looking over to Plant as he entered. He didn’t want things to be awkward as much as the nature ‘bot didn’t, but it was a little tricky to go along with the silliness when his mind was on other things. Which was kind of saying something, considering this was… well, Percy. "MUST BE, UH… MUST BE SOMETHIN’ IN THE SOIL." He caught the tossed bag, grateful for the excuse to fidget a little as he worked on getting it open. "I’VE, UH, I’VE BEEN ALRIGHT… HOW ABOUT YOU??" It was a pretty daft question, but he guessed it didn’t hurt to ask. Probably.
Later came not too much later at all, really; it was about midday or a little after when Plant arrived with a backpack full of snacks and drinks, hoping they’d be a good distraction from the more sour situation he’d just endured.
> Hey Percy! You hidden well? I’ll search you out and find you, just you wait!
It really wasn’t too difficult. Percy had a tendency to make himself noticeable.
Finding Percy was going to be pretty easy, considering he was sat in his usual spot in his “room”. To be honest, he was… kind of confused? He didn’t tend to pay a lot of attention to the going-ons of the dash these days unless there was an opportunity to pester someone, but it’d been kinda difficult not to notice all that sudden drama.
>…OH, UH- …I GUESS??
He sent back, honestly seeming a little distracted despite his best efforts not to. Maybe he could pass off his being in Holly as trying to throw Plant off a bit by sitting somewhere obvious.
Do you have a favorite dessert?
I-I don’t eat all that often, but, ah… I-I’m fond of cheesecake, I suppose. S-Specifically strawberry cheesecake.
I DID NOT GET A WORD OF THAT
flowerfancier replied to your post: Percy. Chuchu. Can we get drunk together later?
I… I need to have a talk with you about it.
I, UH, OKAY… I’LL SEE YOU LATER THEN, I GUESS??
Percy. Chuchu. Can we get drunk together later?
I, UH… I GUESS?? DID… WHAT WAS THAT EARLIER STUFF ALL ABOUT??
Great. I’ll clean the place up and make sure I’ve got enough alcohol for the both of us.
> Good to know. It brings about ideas. But I can talk about those later.
ALRIGHTY THEN, I’LL SEE YOU LATER!!
> OOOOH, IDEAS?? NOW I’M INTRIGUED, HEH.
I’ve sent you my coordinates, Chuchu. Come whenever you would like and we can party all night. But make sure you show up after dark, or someone may see you and freak out and make a big mess of things. You aren’t exactly the, hm, least-dangerous robot around.
> So if you could now, would you?
ALRIGHT, I’LL KEEP THAT IN MIND!! WOULDN’T WANNA ACCIDENTALLY DAZZLE ANYONE WITH MY GOOD LOOKS. *grins cheekily*
> OH YEAH, TOTALLY!! IT’S PRETTY SATISFYING, HEH.
Neat! You wanna come here this time? We can go skinny-dipping after the place is closed.
> Do you really target humans? Have you killed any?
> UH… I GUESS SORT OF?? I MEAN I HAVEN’T BEEN ABLE TO IN AGES, BUT WHEN I HAD THE CHANCE I DID, YEAH!!
> MY BROTHER TOLD ME OFF FOR “GIVING AWAY OUR POSITION” OR SOMETHING BUT IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT, HEH HEH HEH